So..as usual, I haven't wrote in my blog for awhile. I realized that Devin and I really haven't done anything special since the last post. We've come home a couple times to try and help on the farm, but it's always been raining. Tinzlee was blessed a couple weeks ago and then last week was Mother's Day. Devin and I decided that we were going to grill for both of our families. We made BBQ chicken for my moms whole side of the family and then D grilled steaks for his family. It was really enjoyable and peaceful. A lot different then other times we've come home. It was a nice change.
So I've had something on my mind the last couple of days. I've really been thinking about how grateful I am to be married to Devin. Maybe I'm writing about this because I'm here at my mom and dads house for the weekend, by myself. My first time away from Devin since we got married. That's basically 2 1/2 years that I have seen him everyday.
While thinking of how great of a guy Devin is, I realized that I do not thank him for all of the things that he does for me. When was the last time that I told him thank you? I need to take the time to look and I mean REALLY look at things that Devin does for me. The things that he sacrifices for me. Whether it be big or small. So while I'm sitting here contemplating all the wonderful things that my husband does for me, I've come up with a list.
1- Every night when we eat dinner, we usually are watching some comedy show. Such as the Big Bang Theory. Every single night he puts dinner away, puts the dishes in the dishwasher and wipes off the counter.
2- He listens. When I have a bad day at work, Devin is the first one to know about it. He listens. He gives me advice. He hugs me.
3- I am constantly cutting him off when we are having a conversation. He'll be telling me a story and my ADHD will kick in and all of a sudden it's like "SQUIRREL!" -- and I cut him off. He never gets mad at me for cutting him off when he's trying to talk to me.
My list goes on and on and on, but I'd be here forever if I wrote down every single thing that he does for me. I'm setting a goal for myself. I need to acknowledge when he does things for me. I need to be more grateful. Devin-- Thank you. I know that I don't say it enough, but I am grateful for everything that you do for me.
One of the things that I love most about Devin is his determination. President Monson said it best in the 1991 April General Conference, Priesthood Sesson: "There is a look of determination about you. You know who you are and what God expects you to become." Devin knows what he is capable of doing. He knows that God has great things planned for him and I love that about him. Devin knows that he has great potential. He knows that whatever he wants to accomplish in this life, he will get it accomplished. Thank you Devin, for your determination.
I guess it really wasn't until this week, when Devin left to go to Salt Lake City, that I realized how much I need him. Don't get me wrong, I am a big girl. I can wake up by myself and make me breakfast and go to work..do all the things that I normally do without him. But the biggest thing that I noticed was the feeling of safety through the priesthood. I know it was one night in the apartment by myself, big deal..(I drove down the next day to stay with my parents) but there is a difference. My mom had told me that it was weird for her when dad was still living in Mexico and there was no one in the house that held the Melchizedek Priesthood at home. I understood. WHAT IF something had gone wrong that night that I was home alone? I mean I know that I have my uncles who live fairly close by, but I was a little worried. He did give me special blessing the night before he left, and I know that that helped me a lot with feeling safe by myself. I am grateful for a husband that holds the priesthood and is worthy of doing so.
This isn't my most organized post and it's just thoughts that have come to me at 11:45 PM on a Friday night..But thank you Devin. For everything that you do for me. I love you. - 05/13/16
