What's the big deal?

"What's the big deal?"

These are the words my mom told me yesterday -- and boy did I need them!  I struggle really bad with anxiety, as a lot of people know.  I don't know why, but the last few months, my anxiety has gotten even worse.  I stress over EVERYTHING.  I stress about what we're going to do for Sunday dinner, what happens if it snows when we're suppose to be going to Idaho?  WHY CAN'T I GET PREGNANT AS EASILY AS I DID WITH TANNER?  I have to have a plan for everything and it drives me absolutely nuts if I don't.  It really stresses Devin when I get like this.  Which is 100% fair.  I struggled with Thanksgiving.  The not knowing who we were going to eat with, what we were cooking or if we were going Black Friday shopping.

Yesterday I was talking to my mom about going to Idaho for Christmas.  I absolutely hate driving in the snow.  Especially after my car accident.  I was told by a friend that there's supposed to be a snow storm over Christmas.  I started texting my mom about whether or not we would go if it did snow.  I feel like if I don't go, while all my other family members do go, that I would "be in trouble".  My mom called and told me, "What's the big deal? You need to stop you're self and ask that.  What's the big deal if you don't go to Idaho?  You're not going to be in trouble.  You're going to be home with your family.  What's the big deal if you don't know what we're having for Sunday dinner until Saturday night?  Don't let something so silly consume you.  You can pack on Christmas Eve, and if it storms and we decide not to go? Oh well!"  That was pretty much the conversation that she had with me.  

Those words have already helped me so much and it hasn't even been 24 hours.  That should tell you how much anxiety I have right now.  LOL!